Insanity

I could simply be paranoid or even crazy, the hell do I know, whether I am sane or not. Honestly, how can a person judge himself if he has retained his sanity or had he lost it. The moment you get an idea, its like your own child, because that idea did not come out of the blue. On the contrary that idea rose from something, from a splinter of a perception or a realization, it was created, shaped and configured solemnly by you. Basically we are highly objective to our own ideas and thoughts, for we believe that since they are our own and since we have created them, that these ideas are absolutely correct. The problem lies when a second person comes and proves that that idea was wrong and absolute nonsense, just then we fall into a loop whole where we start questioning ourselves, and we start questioning our ideas. After several occurrences of this same event, a person contradicts himself and becomes unsure of what his mind creates or provides for him. Just then, that same person might lose his sanity, hence his ideas which were objective and very true, had fallen victim to the judgmental system of his own mind. Even those simple ideas would seem wrong and the wrong ones would seem right. Quite the irony.
After considering that a person can never tell if he is sane or not, he can never know whether he had lost his mind or he hasn’t and its quite scary. A couple of weeks ago, I read a quote that said: “Nothing is more dangerous than a man with a single idea”, now that means if a man has only a single idea and none other, he will attempt to make it happen or just flow along with the idea. That quite stuck in my mind, for I have always had this issue when a certain random idea pops up on my mind and just remains there for some days. The problem with that is no matter what I do, I can’t seem quite able to get it out of my mind or even making it go away. Had the idea be a suspicion, I’d have to prove it, had it been a bright idea, I’d attempt it and had it been a failure, I’d go down the drain with it. The thing about this is I can’t quite tell if this is insanity or just paranoia or even normal. The bad thing about all of this is that the more you think about it and try to resolve whether ideas are normal or abnormal, whether they were sane or insane, the more you dig deeper into them and into that judgmental phase. As a solution, I am trying to let them go, like just distract myself whenever I have an unwanted idea, eventually we might just get rid of them, probably suppress them in our subconscious that will come out in a later stage to haunt us down, but it will provide a temporarily solution meanwhile.